A Bath in God’s Love
The word Kairos refers to a type of time. There is
chronological time, as what our clock keeps, and there is Kairos time. If the
doctor tells a woman that the baby is due to be born on February 23, that’s
Chronological time. If, however, severe and regular pains begin on February 15
at midnight, this might prompt her to wake up the husband, tell him it is time.
He may tell her, “No. it’s not due yet. Eight more days. Go back to sleep.” He’s
dealing in Chronological time. Yet she knows better. She is dealing with Kairos
time. God’s perfect time.
Kairos is also a
prison ministry. It was started in the early 1940’s. For a time, it moved very
slowly. Two priests requested the opportunity to spend the last day and night
with a condemned man who was to be executed the next morning. The prisoner
agreed. “Sure. Why not.” The men talked for a long time that day, yet the
prisoner was unmoved. The talks continued into the night.
After midnight,
things changed. The man cried. He became more and more emotional, as his time
was growing near. Eventually, he asked the priests what he could
do to help right all the wrong he had done in his sordid life. This discussion
continued for some time. Toward daylight, one priest approached the condemned
man. “You are going to be seeing Jesus this morning. Will you ask him to bless
our Kairos mission?”
The condemned man
agreed.
From it’s humble
beginning, Kairos has now grown into a world wide organization, with more than
18,000 volunteers having only a handful of paid staff. Today, Kairos operates
in eight countries.
I joined the
Kairos group operating at Pine Bluff Prison five years ago. We go into prison
for four days, twice each year. While it is difficult to recruit new Kairos
men, almost all who stay the course for a year never seem to quit. They stay
the course, and will die a Kairos man. My Kairos is made up of men from many
different Christian denominations, and they come from all over Arkansas.
A man is allowed
to lead a Kairos Weekend only once in a lifetime. Lest he become prideful. Many of the men in my Kairos have already
led. Last spring, nobody stepped forward to lead our August weekend, and it was
cancelled.
I am not a
leader. I’m a great follower, always have been. The Kairos leader should be a skilled computer
person, which I am not. And, it requires a major commitment in time. I was not
ready to step forward. But God decided otherwise, and I agreed to lead Weekend
43 in February 2016.
Recruiting the
team came first. The experienced men were easy to recruit. Since we had missed
one weekend, everyone was ready. But, for Kairos to continue, we also needed
new blood. My goal was seven new men. Initially, I though it would happen. I
had at least seven really good prospects. But, as the training commenced, that
number dropped, for one reason or another. When we walked into Pine Bluff Prison
six months later, only two new men remained, with 28 experienced men.
The training came
next. For five Saturdays leading up to the event, we met at my church,
Fellowship Church of Arkadelphia. Training
is not the best word here, for I had little to teach these men that they did
not know. Conditioning ourselves, and,
maybe, training up a leader, may be more applicable. We worked toward
leaving all our denominational
differences at the door, and worked toward common ground, our love for Jesus Christ. We worked toward becoming
humble, vulnerable. Toward allowing us to let God use our bodies to model
unconditional love and total forgiveness which is available only through God,
and reflect God’s love on the Men in White. We worked toward making the entire
weekend a bath in the love of Jesus Christ for our 24 men in white.
Two weeks out, I
went to Pine Bluff for a job I was not looking forward to. Picking 24
participants from the hundreds of applications. There are many reasons to want
to be involved other than spiritual. Really good food, all the cookies anybody
would ever want to eat, three days off work. Following prison guidelines, I did
not meet the men before choosing, I simply looked at their records. Keeping a
racial balance. Old men and young men. Their rating, from 1A, trusted men, to
4C, the other end of the scale. Represent each dorm equally. Then, a lot of
praying. In the end, there were twice as many 4C’s as 1A’s picked. Three
Muslims. We do not look for the easy men to work with, but the leaders. Good
and bad. Men who, once turned, could influence a lot of others during their
stay. On the way home, I had to cry. I
had just given 24 men a great boost toward a more spiritual, and much better,
life with Jesus in a very dark place, while rejecting dozens of others. Without
even meeting them, or really knowing them. But I prayed to God about them, and
God knows them well.
One week out, I
went to Pine Bluff Prison again, to meet with the selected 24, along with 16
alternates. Telling the alternates they were on our list, and would receive a
certificate, but they were not invited to
the party was not easy. However, knowing they would be first on our list
six months later for Weekend 44 helped. The 24 who were picked were elated. To
the best of my ability, I started thinking in terms of their bath in God’s love that day. And, I again
had to cry for the alternates on the way home.
Our last training day ended with a
ceremony to officially make us Kairos Priests for the duration of The Weekend,
and the Foot Washing Ceremony. We were ready. We could hardly wait.
We use a Church
in Pine Bluff for our home base. Our first job was to bag up 1000 bags of
cookies. Every Kairos man brings 50 dozen cookies, mostly donated by our
Outside Team, church members and others who furnish agape and prayer for the
duration. Every person inside those walls would receive 2 bags of cookies,
delivered by Kairos men to their bunks; Cookie
Runs. Each man with a laundry hamper filled with bagged cookies. New men
seem to always be involved in the Cookie Runs. If God has not removed every
last shred of fear from these men, this is where it will show up. But I’ve
never seen it happen. A Kairos man cannot function with fear in his eyes. He
can never reach these men. He might as well go home.
Thursday
afternoon we went in. The Bath in God’s
Love was about to start. My job was now distilled down to making speeches.
Speeches until my throat was sore. Yet, joyful speeches.
I wish I could
tell you more. Take you along every step of the way. But I can’t. I cannot risk
spoiling the surprises for hundreds of other Men in White at Pine Bluff Prison
who may yet experience a wonderful Kairos Weekend. Wonderful for the Men in
White, and wonderful for free world Kairos men as well.
Last week, on Sunday morning, I was back in my
usual place in Fellowship church, on or near the back row. The pastor was
giving a great sermon. At one point, the word Muslim was mentioned, and a
thought hit me hard. I sat there sobbing. I had just, at that moment, been
struck by a realization. Though every one of our 24 men had hugged me and the
other Kairos men long and hard at the end of our closing ceremony, I had no
idea who the Muslims, the A1’s, or the C4’s were. At that point, they were all
just 24 men who badly needed someone, or something more in their life, and many
had found it. They had just experienced a
Bath in God’s Love.
Very moving, thanks for sharing.
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